Nothing exciting is happening life at the moment. Yesterday Steve finished up his move to next door. It’s a little weird for him to be over there. Today he spent most of his morning setting up the cable. We opted to share cable and split the bill and instead of paying the cable company to wire it for us, he did it. Now I’ve just got to get down there and pick up the box we got for his place.

We haven’t moved Zadey into her own bedroom yet. With the exception of her clothes and all the stuff that was in there pre-Steve moving in she’s still in our room. I was going to move her bed in there sometime today so that she’d sleep in there tonight. And then I got really emotional and left her in our room. She’s been next to me for the past year, it’s hard to just kick her out and let her sleep in her own room, all by herself. She’s still so little to be all on her lonesome at night. Ugh, I’m a freak!

Tomorrow we have some serious errands to run and I’m really not looking too forward to it. I’m not sure if I blogged about this in previous posts but here’s the short of what could be a long story.

Deanna lives with baby #4′s Dad in rented house. Living there is also baby #4′s Dad’s ex-girlfriend and their 2 children together. It’s some weird love triangle, always has been. Anway, 2 weeks ago we saw the ex-girlfriend and Deanna shopping together at Target. Actually, Joanne saw them. And then it hit Joanne, ex-girlfriend is on Joanne’s team at work. Joanne is her boss! Ugh, how weird. They don’t talk about personal stuff and according to Joanne, she sucks and probably won’t last anyway. But they were shopping together at the store while we were there so now I’m like… I don’t want to be there! We’re going to end up running into that crazy bitch!! And if we don’t adopt baby #4, that’ll really tug at my heart strings to see her. In fact, if she’s not going to be our child, I don’t want to see her. I don’t want to put a face to the sadness and pity that I already feel for her.

At any rate, this situation makes me dread the shopping that has to get done. And it doesn’t matter what day it happens on, they still might be there!

To another note, back on September 28th I ordered Kahlua’s urn. I’ve been waiting oh so patiently for them to charge my PayPal credit crard and receive it but it hasn’t come. Finally on Monday I decided that I’d give them a call and see what’s up. I explained that I had placed an order and that it’s been a few weeks and my card hasn’t been charged and the urn hasn’t been delivered. She gets my order number from me and asks me if my name is something that it’s not. I tell her no. She says the girl that is in charge of internet orders isn’t at work yet and can she call me back? Yeah, I waited for her to call me. When she finally did she got the order number from me again, she asked me to forward her my e-mail receipt which I did while still on the phone with her. Then she tells me she’s going to look into it and call me back. It’s now Thursday, almost Friday and no word from them.

Typically in this case I’d give up and go someplace else but the site I ordered it from is $50 cheaper than every other place I have seen the exact same urn. I really don’t want to fork out the extra $50 when I can just re-order or do whatever with these people. My only concern is giving my credit card number for a second time and then at some point down the road having the card charged twice. I’ve got to get this clearned up. But not having this memorial for Kahlua done already is bugging me. She’s been gone for a month!! It’s so hard to believe, I miss her so much.

Anyway, the family has been bugging me these days. There isn’t really too much that I want to say on the subject other than they bug me. It brings up some serious childhood issues for me that I can’t seem to resolve in my heart and mind no matter how hard I try. Whatever. I’d rather not deal with that at the moment.

So… that’s life at the moment. Until I blog again . . .

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